karatetentacles

and I will dance.

I will dance on the highest building, when the world is falling apart,
I will dance as the waves come in, crushing all, suffocating,
And while the world is sleeping,
waiting for doom,
hearing the sirens,
knowing the end is near,
not willing to accept their fates,
not willing to take on their destinies,
I will know the time has come and I will dance.

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kansas -

when I stand here, see the plains stretched across for miles and miles,
I see straight into the future, see straight into the past.
I need to escape this constant plane of time,
where all is visible.
it s t r e t c h e s so far, but not far enough:
I want to know more about past and future,
I want to know what's coming, I try and find,
search for answers, frantically,
terrified of what's to come, of what I've done.

but when mountains surround me,
I find peace.

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People always claim that nature is calming.
I have my doubts.
You've heard the birds chirping into the late night, all hours of the day, constantly fearing for their lives, for their safety, hungry and searching and calling out to others? The birds aren't calmed, they're alert.
And you've seen the ants, always busy, always working.
And the flies and bugs and beetles: always buzzing, even at five in the morning, getting in the way and becoming a nuisance.
And walking in nature -- not a walk in a park. Not even a walk in the park is a walk in the park. It takes concentration, focus, no time to let thoughts wander. Look out, a stray stick, a stray rock! Head's up, dog shit, horse shit. That rock looks loose, that one seems safe, tread with caution.
This is not peace.
This is chaos, this is nature.