karatetentacles

Writing didn't go well.

Hopefully summer will bring some good times and a good muse.

I have a date this weekend, also. There's some excitement.

School's to be done soon. Busy day tomorrow. Busy day Thursday. I should not have this much to do at the beginning of summer, but alas. It's far too late... I'm going to be exhausted by the end of the day.

Sooooo I love Kaitlin

Top Ten Sites I Visit the Most:

1. Blogger. I blog, I read blogs (especially Kaitlin's and Hayley's... they're my favorites. <3 Also all the other bookworms and Sierra!)

2. YouTube. Nerdfighter-girl's gotta keep up with her subscriptions!!

3. Facebook. I creep too much... also facebook chat keeps me pretty entertained sometimes. <3

4. Gmail. I compulsively check my e-mail. Don't ask why. It's a habit, kind of.

5. Left handed toons. Even when that site isn't updated, I just go on it and hit "random." God I love Drewmo. Are you all following him on twitter?? @drewmo

6. All my other webcomics. Buttersafe, Dino Comics, Goodbye Chains, SMBC... need my daily lulz (and occasional angst (Goodbye Chains))

7. McSweeney's. Though honestly, I'll not go on it in a while, and then spend hours catching up and reading all the stories on it. <3

8. Twitter. I'm really not on twitter that much, since I get updates to my phone and such, but still a decent amount of time is spent on that website.

9. Nerdfighter Ning. I don't post too frequently, but when something catches my eye I'll post. I comment on blogs a lot, too.

10. iilwy games, PostSecret, amazon, tumblr, and OfficeTally all share this spot.

I miss writing.

I still "write," but I haven't produced anything I really love in a looong time. Not even last NaNo's was all that inspiring.

I miss seeing a blank page and imagining it as opportunity. Now I see it as an obstacle, a challenge I'm just not up to.

I miss sitting in a quiet room and hearing my thoughts bounce around happily, creating a little story for only me. Now I have to turn on music, otherwise it's just overwhelming.

I need my muse.

I need inspiration.

Maybe that's why I'm so desperate to leave. I need new experiences, I need to live. I used to be so content, I used to find inspiration in the smallest things.

I'm going to try to write something. I'll let you know how it goes.

Interesting things I found in the movie theatre:

• A diaper, full of pee.


• Two parts to a High School Musical BFF bracelet.


• A green pen that writes in red.

Talking with my manager:
Me: Look! I found a best friends bracelet! And I found it in two parts, so that means I can give the other part to someone. Haha.
Him: There are a few boys here that wouldn't mind having that other part...

Yup. I guess I'm a hottie. And exceedingly charming. Or something.

I'm sorry that's all I ever tweet about anymore... I know I'm a nerd and I should be tweeting nerdy-type things but I don't know. I tweet what happens to me. And this is what's been happening to me.

Anyway, I made a list of sorts.

People I talk to the most:
(mostly in order)

• Rachel (Bookworm)


• Darci


• J-Lat


• Sierra


• Emily G.


• Rachel (non-BW)


• Cory


• Megan P.

People I feel like I talk to a lot but really don't:
(meaning I just read and comment on their blogs/youtube videos/facebook notes)

• Kaitlin


• Hayley G. Hoover


• Alan


• Alysabeth


• Kaiha

If you don't think we talk all that much... shows the lack-of-life I have, eh? <3

booklist:
1. everything is illuminated
2. the average american male
3. inferno
4. life of pi
5. othello
6. all quiet
7. slaughterhouse-5
8. a separate peace
9. wizards (collection of short stories)
10. cat's cradle
11. with the old breed
12. one flew over the cuckoo's nest
13. 13 little blue envelopes
14. extremely loud and incredibly close
[15. youtube: an insider's guide to climbing the charts]

books I now own:
A Separate Peace
Timequake
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius
Youtube: An Insider's Guide to Climbing the Charts
Spaceman Blues: a love song

soon to own:
How We Are Hungry
You Shall Know Our Velocity
Liberation: Being the Adventures of the Slick Six After the Collapse of the United States of America
The Best American Nonrequired Reading 2007

up next on the booklist:
Timequake
[soon to own list]
running with scissors
the vampire armand

Figure I might as well blog.

I realize I haven't written about my NEW JOB, and that it's only come up in passing. I'm currently employed at Cinemark, a movie theater. Just left an extremely angsty comment on [someone]'s blog about an experience from my first day. The hour I am currently killing ( *stab stab stab!* ) is in preparation for working later today. I got a call earlier today asking me to work at 2, and I was like "Uhh yeah right."

False, I was more like "Oh gosh, I'm sorry, but I can't! Sorry!" Because I apologize a lot to seem more polite? I don't know, I'm like a different person at work. And a different person on the internet. And a different person in my house, or at school, or while reading... Holden would call me a phony. I'm not a phony, I just... don't know who I am.

Hey, angst, leave me alone for once.

You're reading Catcher in the Rye; I really can't help myself.

Well, I finished Catcher, so leave me the hell alone already.

Doesn't mean you're going to stop thinking about it!

Dammit, angst is right. I'm not going to stop thinking about it. Or Cuckoo, or A Separate Peace. Stupid literature, influencing my decisions and stuff. I'm thinking about running away... you know, packing my laptop and some clean underwear and just going to New York. I really want to.

But I'm not going to.

Look for me in the insane asylum, because I'm either gonna pull a Finny or end up like Holden. I don't think I'm strong enough to be Chief.

(Separate Peace, Catcher, and Cuckoo. Suggested reading.)

Hey what's up yo?

Oh nothin' much. Except a lot.

Wanna talk about it?

Nah, not really.

You sure?

Well fine. It's pretty simple, though.

Oh?

Yeah.

Go for it.

Job, boys, phone, bank, money, friends, school, Catcher in the Rye, endings, beginnings, television, books, blogs, internet, FreeLancer, StuCo, lack of sleep, food, nanowrimo...

Sound pretty familiar.

It helps that you're me. Also that I've talked about it all before.

Yeah.

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Kaitlin asked what I thought about Average American Male.

It made me dislike guys a lot. I question it's truthfulness. It was disgusting and similar to what everyone has told me about guys. Then I see things like vloglovers and talk to people who are totally different... and I desperately, desperately hope I don't become one of the girls in that book. The main character resembles the Average American Sitcom-Style Male; you know, the typical sex-driven, must-make-sexually-degrading-comments-about-every-girl-in-the-bar type of guys.

So yeah. That's what I thought about Average American Male.

She told me.

booklist:
1. everything is illuminated
2. the average american male
3. inferno
4. life of pi
5. othello
6. all quiet
7. slaughterhouse-5
8. a separate peace
9. wizards (collection of short stories)
10. cat's cradle
11. with the old breed
12. one flew over the cuckoo's nest
13. 13 little blue envelopes
[14. extremely loud and incredibly close]